On Blogging

The oldest diary that I could find evidence amoung my accesible things was from when I was 13. Apparently, I got it as a gift for my birthday. I've kept a journal ever since. Though ... I vaguely remember that I had sort of started one much earlier than that. I remember contemplating about suicide when I was 11 years old and writing it on a makeshift notebook that I created/recycled from old notebooks with blank leaves. It had a black cover, supposedly showing my dark, gloomy disposition. Yes, I guess, I was depressed very early in my life. But worry not, there are ups and downs in this life. And you'll hear/read more of my bright and positive of my reflections. I'll reserve the murky ones for another blog.

So where was I? I digress. Which will be usual , you will notice. I mentioned journals because I intend to include in here some of my entries. Actually, I also keep notebooks jotting/logging down my thoughts, prose, quotes, conversations with myself, ideas, etc. etc. Some of them may find it's way here too.

Such as the below.... The following was written 2 days ago ... on a notepad ... anything that appears in [ ] would mean that I added the text in between at the time that I am transcribing it to the blog. In other words, they are my point-in-time annotations. So here it goes. When I was younger I used to think that I would keep a journal so I could publish a novel of my life. But as I grow older, I began to think .... who would want to read about me? Why would anyone besides myself would be interested in little old me. Surprisingly, I didn't tell myself "well, why don't you do something that would make them interested in you". Errr, too much work. I'm too lazy.

I still don't think that people would take an interest in my writings. [But if you find yourself reading this... unless you are myself...then I am wrong.] They may not even know me. Only I will enjoy my writings. [That is right, one must write about things that interest them and I am very interested in myself.] Only I will read and re-read them. Only I can get the jokes. Only I can understand them.